( I can actually hear a few of you go, “REALLY??? She’s excited that it’s Monday?” – She’s not all there.”) Weeeellll – yeah I’m happy I’m not “all there”, good reason for it too.
I really hope you all had a great weekend. 🙂 I absolutely did NOTHING! I binged on some of my favorite shows like Once Upon a Time and Star Trek and Bob’s Burgers. It waaaassss amahzing!!!!!!
For the last few weeks I had been feeling somewhat overwhelmed and very drained. I did some introspection the last week (thanks Leonie – my hypno-bestie – hypnotized me a bit to help with that.) The session itself was amazing, you see we also get our own therapy, we regularly see a colleague or two to resolve blocks and energy draining holes.
It had become clear that I was inundated with “BUSINESS” this and that and the next and the other. Everywhere I looked I was being flooded with money and business stuff. I felt irritated and angry and overwhelmed by all the nitty gritty shit of “marketing” and “sales” – holy shit – can we stop already???
So this morning during my “tetris ritual” (I take 10 minutes in the early morning to play tetris – it’s just something I do that’s just another mindless and dissociating thing 😉 and it occurred to me that all this STUFF had been draining me, it had been distracting me from what makes my soul sing. – FOCUSING ON MY CLIENTS and LEARNING new methods to improve myself so my clients can get better help from me!
I love sharing kick-ass methods to help people feel better – I also love educating people. Those things make me bloom and flow and feel energized. The behind the scenes “business” stuff sucks me dry – I feel resentful that I have to focus on those things when I want to work with people and do research.
So after my ritual I went into meditation with the intention that I will be happier (you read that right, I chose to be happy instead of “MEH, Life sucks and blah blah blah) and that I will look at the marketing stuff in a different light. I will also keep focusing on my clients and my studies – I will do minimal “marketing” or “sales”. I decided that I would do what I felt was right for me, not what some coach tells me or what some “Guru” tells me to do. When some “guru” tells me what to do out comes my super stubborn Warrior!
I love him…My Warrior shows me exactly where things are causing energy drains. For weeks I’ve been going – DO I REALLY WANT TO FOLLOW WHAT THEY SAY? It’s so weird, each time I do what THEY say, I have huge resistance – it’s because I figured out that there are a lot of things I don’t agree with. Those things were draining me; and my Settler just plain went and sat on the floor and said – NOPE, NO NO NO! Not gonna work (I know some conflict right? I’m busy dealing with it. But it’s great to know WHERE the conflict is so I can resolve it. PHEW!
My poor Nomad went – BUT I’M NOT HAVING FUN! So he went and threw a tantrum with my Warrior – YIKES! So I have a big part of me that is in total conflict, but that conflict taught me that I DON’T have to follow those “guru’s”, yes it’s great to have some guidance and get an idea – but I really don’t have to get wrapped up in all those things if I don’t have to. I HAD A CHOICE. I HAVE A CHOICE. YOU HAVE A CHOICE. (I’m due back with my Leonie-Love) for another session to resolve the rest of the conflict, this week. 😀 )
The moment I realized I had a choice, I could decide and be happy and not be dragged down by other crap that I didn’t enjoy – I decided that I could choose to change my attitude around it too. Which is what I did. I changed my mind about the things that drained my soul. I had a bit of a inner chat, I recognized what was upsetting my equilibrium and I recognized how it was doing it – it left me tired and listless. I decided I didn’t want that and that I rather wanted to be happy today and full of vigour.
So with that my energy was totally renewed. I feel excited today that I’m going to be working with my clients and that I’m going to learn something new from them. I can’t wait – as that’s where my heart is at.
But isn’t it interesting that one little thing can make everything else feel dreary and “meh”? Isn’t it interesting that just one area of one’s life can be so utterly soul destroying and it affects EVERY other part of your life?
Relationships are EVERYWHERE. I have a relationship with marketing and sales, I have a relationship with my emotions. I found that so interesting, as I had realized that if just one relationship is off in your life, that it can totally destroy you on so many levels? It’s like having a leaky hose pipe!
Vital water and water pressure is lost thanks to loads of different leaks in your life, water/libido (Life energy) is lost thanks to all these little holes. But plug those holes and guess what? Your libido (Life Energy) is then focused on what is the most important and you’re able to move on and do what you are meant to do. Isn’t it just so spiffy? I think it is.
So where in your life are leaks that is taking away from your happiness?
To your Love, Happiness and Success
P.s for those of you who have NO idea why I’m referring to something called a Warrior, Settler or Nomad…You can download the short Intro booklet HERE that I give to my clients. 🙂 It’s fascinating and written by a PURE GENIUS called Mr. Terence Watts. I have a soft spot for him and his lovely wife, the stunning Mrs. Julie Watts. A dynamic duo!
I make use of WSN (among many other things) to help my clients resolve conflicts in their relationships and it’s a super kick – ass method. I teach my clients how to use it on their own too, so they walk away with a massive toolbox.